Do you really want your old life back?
How many times over the past 9 months did you crave for your old life back? (for me, sometimes 10 times a day!).
This time has been a time mixed with a sense of limbo and significant change. On some level, I appreciate the time we've had to get clear on what's important and what's not, the time to dream a new version of our lives (when we aren't bogged down in have-to's and should-does).
And like you, I too am looking forward to the day where I can take all that reflective knowledge into a new life (a one where shaking hands and co-mingling is not taboo).
This time is not only an excellent time to reflect on what's working or not in our lives: but it also allows time to process and make significant life changes,: like up-sizing or down-sizing, rethinking your career choices, going back to school, or visualizing how you want your new life to be.
How do you move from reflection to decisions?
Once you decide, are you satisfied with the outcome? Or are you like me: sometimes, my choice is crystal clear, and other times my choices get eroded by hesitancy and fear.
I begin to second-guess. Should I? Shouldn't I? Is this the right decision? Frankly, it's exhausting.
We would all like to be clear decision-makers, but the truth is, we are human and sometimes we vacillate and get confused.
A few years ago, I decided to sell my acupuncture practice to pursue a new career. Everything in my body and Heart said YES! My friends and family lovingly asked variations of: "Are you nuts?!?!!"
With the wise words of Mary Oliver's poem "The Journey" inspiring me, I took that proverbial leap of faith. Well, to be honest, I jumped. Now, four years later, I continue to move forward with this new venture.
I'm not going to sugar-coat the truth — It's hard. Every day, I have to muster a level of self-love, trust, and/or courage to meet the demands (and sometimes terror) presented by this new journey. It's not the business stuff for me (although that is a steady learning curve!). The hardest part for me is being "out there" — being so public. The second most challenging part is trusting that going public is a form of healing and transformation.
Remember the old joke: What do you get when you play a country song backward? You get your love, your car, and your job back. In my worst back-and-forth moments, my mind taunts me: I had it so great! I want my old life back. Yet when I consider going back, My Heart and body scream NO WAY.
We claim our power by trusting in ourselves — instead of looking outside of ourselves for answers.
That's where our power lies. In the face of change and total upheaval, all we can do is be kind to ourselves, trust our Hearts, and listen to our intuition.
Ask your Body and Heart, what is nudging you to change?
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